Today's been a crappy day
Seems like I can never be happy for long. Something always upsets me and bring me crashing down.
Noone notices when you cry, Noone understands the reason why, Noone cares enough to ask, Noone cares enough to know. Noone worries about the cuts, Noone sees them on your arms, Noone tries to understand, Noone tries to change your mind.
Today's been a crappy day
Seems like I can never be happy for long. Something always upsets me and bring me crashing down.
The reason I faff around a lot making vague references and not saying much about my personal life is because I can't decide how much of my personal details I want to be out on the Internet.
I am also very bad at putting all the words floating around in my head down in writing. It always sounds much better in my head...
I'm trying to edit out any identifying information as I go which prevents me getting into the flow of writing. I'm not using any pictures that have faces of me or the kids. I'm not using our real names (I think my about me has the name details). I don't mention any locations... etcetera etcetera
Then I wonder if I'm being silly because what exactly is there to hide? I don't know but the Internet has a long memory so I'll keep my anonymity for now.
I also once had people I knew/know in real life following my blog so I was/am conscious of an audience that knows more about me than what I write.
Okay so I read back through my older posts and realised that I never actually mentioned I had my first son. I can see where I was going to but never did. Reasons are generally explained in my post about my mixed feelings on Internet and privacy.
So yeah, I have an almost 3 year old son who I call Turtle on here. As well as an almost 8 month old son who I call Loch Lobster. So, that's a significant part of my life that I haven't mentioned before now...