long overdue post

about formal and valedictory etc





i'm really...





idk







at the moment i'm fine





the worst may be over...





i dont know







i dont think it will be over until i actually get accepted to a uni





he's reacting even worse then i thought he would









*sigh*



(i'm sorry i'm only posting this now, i should have posted when i first wrote it but... i thought i had and then didnt check, my bad :P )

TER

well...

i deserve it ...

i know i do


i also know it signals the final death to all of my dreams


well to half of my dreams anyway...



i may still get into a teaching course.... may...



but even so...


i should have tried harder...


i should have done... something



and now i can do no more...

my parents are gunna kill me...

if i dont kill myself first


its a hopeless score


hopeless individual scores and a hopeless TER


gunna eat myself


why did i have to look at the website now??

now i have to go down to the shops and try to act happy

whilst also trying to think of a christmas present i want dad to buy me


dads gunna ask me what score i got and i really dont want to tell him

especially now, when we're out



well... i'd better go down there...

will post later

dont have time right now :D