Thursday, October 22, 2009

and some brain teasers

Four men were in a boat on the lake. The boat turns over, and all four men sink to the bottom of the lake, yet not a single man got wet! Why?

What word can be written forward, backward or upside down, and can still be read from left to right?

What can run but never walks, has a mouth but never talks, has a head but never weeps, has a bed but never sleeps?

How many times can you subtract the number five from twenty-five?

One word in this sentence is misspelled. What word is it?



(if u want the answers, ask me for them)

now a funny post to get rid of any lingering depression

Having Mum over for dinner

Ben invited his mother over for dinner. During the course of the meal, Ben’s mother couldn’t help but notice how beautiful Ben’s roommate, Jennifer, was. Bens Mum had long been suspicious of the platonic relationship between Ben and Jennifer, and this had only made her more curious.
Over the course of the evening, while watching the two interact, she started to wonder if there was more between Ben and Jennifer than met the eye. Reading his mum’s thoughts, Ben volunteered, ‘I know what you must be thinking, but I assure you Jennifer and I are just roommates.’
About a week later, Jennifer came to Ben saying, ‘ever since your mother came to dinner, i’ve been unable to find the beautiful silver gravy ladle. You don’t suppose she took it, do you?’
Ben said, ‘well, I doubt it, but I’ll send her an email just to be sure.’ So he sat down and wrote:

Dear Mum,
I’m not saying that you ‘did’ take the gravy ladle from the house, I’m not saying that you ‘did not’ take the gravy ladle. But the fact remains that one has been missing ever since you were here for dinner.
Love, Ben.

Several days later, Ben received an email back from his mother that read:

Dear Son,
I’m not saying that you ‘do’ sleep with Jennifer, I’m not saying that you ‘do not’ sleep with Jennifer. But the fact remains that if Jennifer was sleeping in her own bed, she would have found the gravy ladle by now.
Love, Mum.



Lesson of the day-
NEVER LIE TO YOUR MOTHER!

clarification

i never mean it when i say i'm gunna kill someone...



just saying





for one thing, i'm too easily distracted and my moods change too frequently for me to be angry for too long.

i am really angry about this one thing tho

its really bugging me even tho it shouldnt



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moving on...

(or trying to at any rate)




YYYYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i got offered an interview at adelaide!!!!!
yayness

(i'm actually still quite scared tho coz my TER is gunna be pretty s***)


anyways, onto...
not as happy news
i didnt get offered an interveiw for UNSW, this could ba for one of two reasons:
1) they simply don't offer interstate stidents main round interviews co of the travel involved ('m rally hoping for this one)
2) my 'predicted TER' wasnt even good enough to be considered :(
the second ones scary coz on my written application was written 90, and thats probably actually quite a bit higher then what i'm actually gunna get :(

so... scared yet excited (have i mentioned how screwed up my emotions are?)


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(btw, that funny doted line means change of topic, coz i can't be bothered writing seperate posts)


ummm, what was my last point?

oh yeh...

well

sorta my random depression/i feel like i'm getting left out of everything/i know it's my fault and its no use/it's all in my imagination

yeh...

anyways...

*sigh*

i can't explain without feeling like an idiot

if i was actually getting deliberatly ignored or something, i think i'd actually feel better. but its coz i'm more sorta... not even considered, or only as an afterthought

thats what 'hurts'

i have so many examples floating through my head right now...
but they all make me feel inferior, and stupid


not everyone does it, or... not all the time anyway

but... at some stage you've all done it

ignored me or talked across me or just made arrangments that i never know of


DAMMIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i hate it when my emotions go crazy

i'm stressed for exams and coz of uni and it makes me feel everything much more strongly then i usually would


and it's times like this, when i'm stressing about something and my emotions begin to get inthe way that i begin to think...

how much of what happened actually happened and how much of it have i made up to make myself feel better?

i remember some of what made me feel so alone, so adrift
but i can only clearly remember one example, and it's so stupid and childish. it cant have been all that happened, can it?

i told myself it was my decision, but was it?


i've never felt comfortable around any of you in the first place, thats why i'd left, so i thought

i've never belonged, i don't know why

maybe its my age, or my original shyness or ... i dont know!! my strangeness i guess



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lollipop? :/

Monday, October 19, 2009

hmm

almost a week since i posted...

not that that's particularly new for me, but after last weeks uberposting

etc...











if u havent really noticed by now, i dont actually know what to say,
earlier i did, but then the wireless network wasnt working so...

idk


idk anything anymore

i dont even know how i feel


numb?
is a good word i guess

although i think i'm deciding to be angry

if one draws a picture of a crime scene that shows the murder of the one ur 'angry' at, does that mean ur actually angry at them?

Thursday, October 15, 2009

:P

i may or may not have posted everyday this week :P

lols

wednesday, 14th october (a bit later)

random mood swings are not particularly helpful

i went from joyously happy to angry and upset within a few mins



:(

Wednesday, 14 October 2009 9:17 AM

YYYYYYYYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY‼‼‼‼‼‼‼‼‼‼‼‼‼‼‼‼‼‼‼‼‼‼‼

(is giggling and bouncing in excitement)
How does one put ‘excitement’ into words?

Regardless…
:D

I is very happy

A dream is resurrected.

Or half a dream anyway

The TER is still lacking atm

Anyways… i just have to try the best i can for it

(so i keep getting told anyway)

:)

Lah lah lah

Happy thoughts :D

Tuesday, 13 October 2009

I had all the stuff I wanted to say right at the front of my mind just before, but now I’ve sat down to write it it’s all gone out of my head.

I want to write soooo much but i can’t find the words…


:(

Maybe if i give it time i’ll find them

^o)

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Monday, 12 October 2009 (night-time)

I’m sure I’ve complained about this before, but teachers should not have access to my home phone.

With Ms Lovell it was ok coz she rang and asked for me not my parents, but bloody *****‼ (I don’t particularly want to put names in) he rang and I picked up coz I was closest but he asked for my parents. A partial section of the conversation was “it’s my duty of care to speak to your parents; if I don’t tell them now that you’re in position to fail then they can come back later and complain that I didn’t warn them.” (He couldn’t even make up his mind whether it was ‘duty of care’ or his position he was worried about). Then there was: me “I would rather you didn’t” (tell my parents), his reply “yes I can understand that but I have to” (thus ‘understanding’ isn’t enough apparently, we all must follow the social rules and expectations). I’m incredibly ‘annoyed’ coz he rang in the first place but what I’m mostly ****ed off about is that although I specially asked him not to speak to my parents he demanded to. Yeh, he’ll find out pretty soon (i.e. tomorrow) just how much progress and cooperation that’s gotten him.

Yes okay, it’s all my fault coz I haven’t done enough work, I haven’t followed the draft deadline etc

I’m aware that I’ve gotten myself into this mess but I’m slowly digging my way out, if only the teachers would get off my back and let me‼

I know, I know, I know… I KNOW!!!!!

(I’m sorry, you didn’t need to ‘hear’ all that, I just needed to vent)

Monday, October 12, 2009

monday 12th october

now i've gotten over my mild panic attack...

idk school's finally getting to me :(

its my own fault i know that...






'dreams are just that'

Sunday, 11 October 2009 10:40:18 PM

Well…

It’s only half my fault I can’t finish my holiday homework.

(Okay, it’s not actually much of an excuse seeing what day it is but…)

My lightbulb appears to have had a mental breakdown.

It didn’t ‘blow’ (like they are wont to), it fell apart. Quite literally, and I didn’t even realise.
I went in to my room and went to turn on the light, but when I flicked the light there was a flash and then it went out. I just assumed it had blown and tried to finish my homework in the dark (not particularly easy when it’s a research assignment and I’m trying to read the books). But then, when I went to put my laptop on my bed so I was more comfortable, I saw this round glass thing lying on my bed. It was the glass part of the lightbulb! I’m lucky I didn’t sit on it. Somehow the glass had disconnected from the metal holder and fallen. When I got my torch and looked closer I realised that the end bit of the bulb is still stuck in the socket. I don’t know how to get it out, coz I normally hold the glass part to remove it…

But when I went to complain to dad he just said that he’ll have to ‘take apart’ the outside and remove the metal end?? Anyways, he said he’ll do that tomorrow. But we don’t actually have a lightbulb to replace it with. Next point on the list :P

Sunday, 11 October 2009

I am afraid.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

...

i want to write

but i dont know what to write about

or how to write it





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how annoying