arrogance

i never used to think that i was treated differently because of my age.
but recently it seems to me that people(as in people in my homegroup) have been treating me differently to how they used to. it could just be coz I'm seeing a lot more of them this year coz of the common room, but it feels like more than that.
and its only the girls that are treating me differently, the guys that i hung out with last year still treat me the same that they always have. i don't know... i cant even explain it properly. and its not like they're treating me badly or anything, its just different. maybe its just me and the moods I'm in. sometimes it seems like i get included more (although i think its usually just me including myself) but other times it seems like I'm getting subtly snubbed or laughed at behind my back (now i just sound crazy) but i cant explain it.
its just... in certain situations, its like you don't expect me to understand.
but I'm not stupid you know
and just coz I'm younger or coz i wasn't hanging out with you guys at the wall doesn't mean i don't understand innuendo
i do generally understand wat you mean in situations or wen ur using innuendo. i just don't always let on that i do. but even if i didn't there's no need to be so goddamn arrogant about the fact that you think ur smarter or better then me because of it.
this post is mainly coz of one particular incident that happened today, i wasn't really angry over it, but it did remind me of all the other times and allowed me to articulate this post.
it wasn't like it was something big or anything, it was just: the look as they said 'you dont get it do you?' in that voice. its the fact that they assume my ignorance of what they mean. that's the part i don't like, they're assumption of wat I'm like or at the very least of wat i know.it never fails to annoy me. i call it arrogance. you may disagree, but thats not really the point is it?

okay, ive had to edit this coz someone took it the wrong way. this post wasnt aimed at anyone, i was just trying to get a message across. apparantly i failed coz you got the wrong message, iys my fault coz im not very good at explaining myself. im going to add some more to this as i go, but at the moment i actually have a job to do so id better do that.