UMAT

well, I've been gradually getting around to writing this.

haven't really been wanting to, i cant think of the right words

I've been being really 'blase'/ casual about how i did on the test

but i know in at least a couple of questions i had no clue therefore i most likely failed



section by section

how frickin annoying

well... first section, went way too slow to start off with, but i couldn't speed up without compromising actual effort

second section, it seemed so much easier in the practice exam. i sorta expected that but even so...

third section, by then my brain was literally fried, some of them i understood (or thought i did) but...

i sorta didn't take much in for the rest of the day

although now I'm marginally calmer i can remember the whole day (after leaving umat) perfectly clearly
i think that when dad picked me up he could see i was completely freaking (i now think he reads me a lot better then i usually realise) so we went back into the city coz mum wasn't finished till 3:00. dad and i went to the central markets, to the dining hall area coz it was about 1:00 by then (btw the eating hall is massive and it was incredibly crowded when we got there) we found this place that sells crepes as well as other foodstuffs and we ate there, dad said i could have a crepe after we'd eaten, but he forgot so i didn't get one :(
then we went wandering around and looked at random stuff around the place
i tried this strange food item, it was sorta like a donut, but not quite donut pastry, the pastry reminded me more of puff pastry but not so crumbly, gah! i cant explain it but it was really nice.


and yes you may have noticed that im talking more about what i did after the umat then what i felt during it, but i just cant explain it. thats why its taken me this long to write this, i was trying to wait till i was in a writing mode (coz i can only write in certain moods) but its taken this long for me to realise that i have been in a writing mood (hence my wish to write) but i just cant articulate my feelings at that point in time. the best way i can describe it is blankness, but thats not quite correct... anyway