She Said

"Gail, you're cutting your own throat here"
My reply "Yeah, i do that a lot..."

this is a partial conversation that i had last year with one of my teachers, its been going through my head for a while now because... in the context of the conversation, i still am...

i dont think that made sense, what i mean is, i'm still not studying correctly. i think that conversation took place because i didnt hand in a proper draft until the last minute...
this year, despite thinking i'd changed my habits...
nope

oh dear..

the fact that i'm posting this right before an exam doesnt mean that i'm worried about exams...

well, not really

or i dont think i am anyway

its hard to tell because...
i tend to ignore the fact that i may be nervous/stressed
because i decided that if i dont think im stressed i therefore wont be...

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i still dont think that made much sense
this post has been ... annoying me
it feels unfinished

mainly coz it is
i was interupted so published it without getting to my point

anyways... i've sorta forgotten my point by now...

something about me not preparing properly i think

all true
*shrug*