Uni

So I figure I should write a response to my last proper post. The one about how much I 'wasn't' freaking out about exams and grades...

well, that was right before my 2nd semester exams for last year...
And I'm pleased to say i passed all of them. In fact my first year grades are pretty good.

First Semester, First Year: 2 Distinctions, 1 Credit and 1 Pass.
Second Semester, First Year: 1 High Distinction (XD), 1 Credit and 2 Passes.

I am incredibly pleased with my high distinction :D
It was for computer programming which is the first programming topic I've ever done and the first time I've ever actually looked at programming languages at all.
So yeah, pretty pleased with that. Not only did i do well in it but i actually enjoyed it immensely.

My initial plan was to major in chemistry and minor in mathematics. that was until the second week of first semester when i realised that uni math is very different from high school math. and that i would never be able to cope with it, I'm legitimately surprised that i passed the whole of first year math, there's no way i was ever going to manage later years.
and its not only the maths that surprised me with how hard it was, the chemistry is also quite a step up from year 12. the higher difficulty of chemistry combined with my personal difficulty about paying attention during lectures means that chemistry quickly became boring and i was out of my depth with that as well.

So I've changed my plan to major in computing and minor in chemistry, which will be easier to pass all the chem but at the same time i would rather do no chem at all. i have no choice though, i have to continue chem now I've started it.
there's quite a load of computing topics i need to do over the three years in order to major in computing science (as they've named it) but its still not comparable to the ridiculous number of topics I'm forced to do for education. chemistry only requires 3 topics passed from the later years, which in theory sounds easy, but due to the large gaps in my chemistry foundations... not actually going to be that easy...

its not just me being unsure about my chem skills, in fact I'm quite sure.
you see, its now the beginning of second semester, second year. so i have already done another whole semester of uni...

Second Semester, Second Year: 1 High Distinction, 2 Credits and 1 Fail...

Yeah...
the fail was chemistry... hence why I'm still not sure I'll be able to manage to pass 3 topics in the next 2 or so years.
the high distinction was for computer programming 2, yay. yeah they're not very inventive when it comes to names for their topics.
actually i'm not sure about my education grade, my tutor put the wrong grade up on FLO and he never told me wether or not he corrected it... it shouldnt have made much of a difference anyway, the exam was the major component.
(despite teaching us all about how exams and tests don't show the true knowledge of students and how ongoing testing is a more accurate measure of learning... education then gives us an exam worth a large percentage of our final grade... *rolls eyes*)

anyways...

i was dealing with a lot of stress at the beginning of last semester... this isn't an excuse for my grades btw, it was mostly affecting my personal life.
for at least a couple of months I was really unsure of what was going to happen, even after that it was still... hard.
it hasn't exactly gotten easier since then but I am happier (uni stress not withstanding)

The last seven months have been such a huge change to my life and my future.
I don't regret any of it and I just hope no-one else does either.

I have great self confidence in my ability to cope with anything and even though I am finding it hard to deal with uni work atm i'm still convinced i can make it through.