i dont think that this is a good idea

i dont think i should write the following blog, i dont see how it will make anything better, it may even make things worse
it seems so... melodramatic( i think thats how its spelt), its not ...
i dunno
if i didnt know that i had followers, if i didnt know that people i know were actually going to read this, then i wouldnt think twice about putting it up, but
when i know people actually read it, it starts getting complicated
i dont want people to worry about me, thats why im breaking down atm
coz ive been holding it all in for so long, when i dont have a release it all becomes bottled up until i either explode or fall apart
i seem to be falling apart atm
but, it shouldnt be all that bad, and i cant even really explain why its happening, there was nothing to set it off, there usually isnt...
so even when someone actually notices im cracking, i cant properly explain it to them, so they get frustrated and just leave me
again
noone has time for each other anymore