official

well i guess ive now officially arrived at blogger
now that ive publicly started following staberfoyle park
and there are so little followers so its not like i could be overlooked
anyways, i was gunna write a longer blog but its 1.43 in the morning
and i have the worst pain atm
i tend to lose vast tracts of time without being aware of it
its now 1.57 in the morning and i am so tired coz i havent slept properly in the last few weeks (by properly i mean a semblance of normality that i can usually muster up).
if you use properly as meaning what your supposed to get in sleep with proper sleeping patterns then i havent been sleeping like that for a couple of years now
for me everything seems to go back a 'couple of years' but then, it really does all start there.
not that dwelling on it does me any good especially not at the moment
one more thing before i go tho: i honestly dont understand how people can stand to drink alcohol. i mean apart from the logical point that it is actually poisoning you. theres also the taste to be taken into consideration, honestly it tastes and smells like stale vinegar, not that i actually know what that tastes like, but it really cant be that far off it. actually i can tell why they call it spirits, which reminds me of somthing else its similar to, gasoline, if youve smelt that sharp burny scent of gasoline then that is exactly the same description of alcohol. but anyway now i really do have to try to sleep, tho whether im sticking with the couch or deciding to go with the bed, i havent decided yet. thats really dodgily worded. but im too tired to fix it, so ill just post and fix it later, much later.