its times like these...

That I remember why I actually like having friends.

Those times that I start to go into one of my ‘moods’ and begin to shut myself off from the world around me, I’m not being particularly rational when I do that, but I still do. I don’t always know what has set me off, although I can usually guess. This time I to sorta know what happened to start me on my downwards spiral, and it has ... (I was going to say ‘everything’ but that’s not quite right) almost everything to do with school.
It’s my own fault, I know that... that’s part of what set me off, the disgust, the frustration, the... idk, I can’t explain all of my emotions but... that’s basically it. Just being annoyed at myself (although being annoyed at someone else can cause it too) is enough to convince me to ‘cut myself off’ from those around me. Not that it’s a conscious rational thought; it’s just my ‘habit’/reflex/strangeness etc. I pretty much start to do it automatically, and most of the time even when I realise, I just find it too hard to pull myself out of it, I just let the mood swing around till I feel better and feel like I can begin to interact with other people again.
anyway...

My point was... it was nice to talk to you, we don’t talk very often, and when we do, we don’t talk about much. But it’s still nice to talk, even over msn.
I don’t think that u actually realised that u helped, I don’t think that u realised I needed help, but nonetheless u did help. I don’t think u could have realised, although my responses at the start of the convo may have been a little tired sounding, although that was also because I was(and still am)tired. But, yeh... it was good to smile, even to laugh (although quietly and under my breath because I was in a library after all), good for my mood and ultimately good for me.
All I needed was a quiet, easy convo with a friend to make me feel better. For now anyway, the underlying cause of my bad mood is still there so the mood will no doubt return, but anyway, I have a little respite, and now I know for sure it’s coming, I may be able to organise things a little better. you've given me a respite i didn't expect.