stress

Forget the stress of school life, forget the fact that I just discovered I can’t get into any of the uni courses I wanted and that I ... well forget all that

The most stressful moment I’ve had all year happened today (Monday 3rd August) as dad was driving us from the library to home.
I can’t articulate my feelings properly at the moment
I’ll try to come back to this later and write more



Well... stress isn’t really the best word; just forget all the shit I was rambling about before. I was trying to force the words to come but they weren’t so it didn’t make any sense.
Let’s try to list all my current grievances:
1) School, obviously, I’m pretty sure it’s at the front of every year 12’s mind at the moment.
a. Subjects, I’m not keeping up with the workload, at all really, I’m well... not really. I was gunna say I’m trying but... not hard enough obviously.
b. Grades, we got our first semester reports, a while ago now but still recently. I thought it would be decent, but... I can’t really complain, I know a couple of people who got way worse. But it’s still nowhere near good enough.
c. UMAT, it was bound to come up wasn’t it? I have no idea how I went in it. The whole doing the best one can and not knowing till the results come back.
d. University, yeh... looking at all the course guides, getting steadily more freaked out as i realise just how unlikely it will be for me to get into any of the courses i want.
2) home, yeh lot of stuff. not gunna list it all
3) future, namely mine.